Saturday 29 December 2007

飄零燕

飄零燕

從前從前 曾拖緊母親手臂
童年童年 渴睡中她親面冚被
可惜一天 她竟收拾行李 沒再一起

何時離巢 長空展翅的小燕
仍然茫然 半路中雙親望不見
只好解釋 一家安樂如意 沒有多少

然而剩我一個
更加飛得堅壯 總算收穫
然而倦了 哭了
盼雙親再如初 抱緊我

蕩失的孤燕想歸家
處處雪 處處冷
降落到哪裡才是家
我必須要拍翼掙扎
習慣孤獨 長空中往返

飛出生天 我會怕 也會冷
對逝去童年仍念掛
漫天風雪 獨自招架
但再長大 還是會想她

男孩男孩 能供給愛跟關注
然而懷疑 最後彼此不易相處
多少相戀 終生不用情變 絕對保鮮

虔誠祈求 城中所有的小燕
無尤無愁 冷夜中雙親贈溫暖
一位不少 一家安定無缺 沒有紛擾

然而剩我一個
更加飛得堅壯 總算收穫
然而倦了 哭了
盼雙親再如初 抱緊我

蕩失的孤燕想歸家
處處雪 處處冷
降落到哪裡才是家
妳必須要拍翼掙扎
習慣孤獨 長空中往返

飛出生天 妳會怕 也會冷
對逝去童年仍念掛
漫天風雪 獨自招架
但再長大 還是會想她

蕩失的孤燕想歸家
處處雪 處處冷
降落到哪裡才是家
妳必須要拍翼掙扎
習慣孤獨 長空中往返

飛出生天 妳會怕 也會冷
對逝去童年仍念掛
漫天風雪 獨自招架
妳已長大 能獨個歸家
前路會掌握 寒夜再飛返

死性不改

死性不改

再见了我的宠爱 谁愿接受这种意外
你赞我天生可爱 不愿看着我离开
同伴也话我傻 喜欢受挫 宁愿情敌再伤我 

人天生根本都不可以爱死身边的一个 
无奈你最够刺激我 凡事也治到我 
几多黑心的教唆 我亦捱得过 
来煽风 来点火 就击到我么 
谁恋爱就多障碍 死性我不想改 
如我没有你的爱 我没法活得来 
情人的存在是我从来都志在 难在我拱手让爱

我怕可一不可再 难道你被爱都有害 
我确信天真不会错 威力会移山填海
同伴也话我傻 喜欢受挫 宁愿情敌再伤我 

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人天生根本都不可以爱死身边的一个 
无奈你最够刺激我 凡事也治到我 
几多黑心的教唆 我亦捱得过  
来煽风 来点火 就击到我么 
谁恋爱就多障碍 死性我不想改 
如我没有你的爱 我没法活得来 
情人的存在是我从来都志在  难在我拱手让爱
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Tom, Dick and Harry

Oh damn... I need to stay back this weekend to do OT. Another weekend gone.

David came to my company for interview today. They offered him the job directly after his interview. If there is a company hiring you without thinking, what do you think? Is that company really need your professionalism? To sad to tell the truth is they hire you because they need people. But not you.

To me, there is a risk working in this kind of company.

First, you don't know when they do not need you anymore. Since that they can just simply pick any Tom, Dick and Harry from the street, finding another new employee is no longer a big deal for them. When they finish using you, they will find ways to throw you out from this company. Don't you wish on the day when you hand in your resignation letter, your boss and CEO are begging you to stay, hence giving you a large increment? This is because they still know how to value you.

Second, since that any Tom, Dick and Harry can join us, means we are not professionals and we got no more value in the market. Currently my salary is more than what my engineering friends are getting. But in terms of value, who do you think are more valuable? Of cuz engineer la...

I already decided to tell my boss regarding my transfer after he comes back from holiday next week. I hope everything goes smooth.

God, I need your help again this time. I need your blessing just like what you gave me during my Scholarship Interview, Final Year Project Demo, work interview, and so on.

God bless.

Friday 28 December 2007

Colourize

I just received my salary, together with my 13th month salary. Heard that we'll only get our bonus, increment and annual dinner in March '08.

Previously my plan is to apply for a transfer to Engineering Department after the increment. Because I thought that they will have the increment end of the year.

So I need to change my plan lah.

Ermmm...

Now is already end of December. Maybe I'll apply for the transfer next week. Is it a bit too early? Aiksss....

Then after working for 2 months, I'll tender myself around March after the increment (if I cannot tahan). Then I cabut around June to somewhere else or get my ass stick back to Kuching.

Hopefully Mr Wolf or his assassins won't came across my blog, or else.... Haiz... Amen la...

If you ask what is my feeling now, well, I'm actually a bit reluctant because ya know, I've been working on this stupid job for more than one year. Moreover, I put lots of effort in it.

But no choice.

In order to colourize back my painting, I need to change. I hope Mr Wolf can give me some colours from now on.

You can do it, Shen. Don't worry. Everything is just fine in front of you. It is YOU who decide the colours. You don't want your life to be that dule, eh?

So Shen, move forward bravely.

Gambatteh!!

Thursday 27 December 2007

Colours



What comes to your mind when you see these colourful crayons? Ever ask yourself why are these crayons so colourful?

How is it like if all the things you see are just exactly like the Charlie Chaplin Show?

Life is damn bored without colours.



Life has been stressing me out these days. Not because of the workload, but the colours. I hardly see colours in everything I do nowadays.

What's happening to me? Why am I feeling this way? Why is life so dule? Where are my colours?

Is work what life all about? The answer is NO. Life should be interesting, whereby you meet new things, new people and new activity.

I had so much fun meeting up with my old pals last weekend. We started our future together, but each and everyone of us ends up differently in our careers. After sharing some small talks with them, I learn that I am the one who is putting those black and white patches onto my painting.

One of my bestpal, Cindy is getting married next year in NZ. She is going to start her new life there. To me, this is too good to be true.

Sometimes life is unpredictable. I envy Cindy because her life is what I always wanted to be. To me, going overseas is already a big question mark in my head, what more to say migrate.

The life I always wanted is to settle down somewhere peaceful in places like Australia, England or New Zealand. Where there is no theft case and rob case. Maybe I can be a kindy teacher, teaching kids how to sing and do painting. Or maybe I'll run a restaurant where I have old folks visiting my shop every morning for coffee and cookies. Or maybe I can be a florist selling nice fresh flowers to customers all walks of life. Or maybe I can operate a petshop selling pets like bunnies, kittens, and puppies. This life is so perfect... Voila!

I know my life will never ever turn out to be like that. Im going back to Kuching and get my ass stick there forever.

I feel my life is in a mess. I need to get everything back into pieces. I need colours. I need life.

Sunday 23 December 2007

Boring stuffs

My Year in 2007

As 2007 comes to an end.........

1) Where did you begin 2007?
- I was having my training at Batam, Indonesia. I still remember I need to come for work on the 2nd Jan because 1st Jan fell on a Sunday. Too bad.

2) What was your status on Valentine'sDay?
- Double la... Lmao!

3) Were you in school (anytime thisyear)?
- No way! Unless I am a loser.

4) How did you earn your money?
- Using my brain, eyes, mouth, actions, and punishments. I even sacrifice my soul for that. Is money everything? No right?

5) Did you have to go to the hospital?
- Yes, around October in KL. Remember the accident in KL. Yea... That's the one.

6) Did you have any encounters withthe police?
- Two nights ago! There were a bunch of police doing road block around 2am. Damn.

7) Where did you go on vacation?
- Kukup Fishing Village!! Nice food! But too bad I got drunk too early...

8) What did you purchase that was over$1000?
- My flight back to Kuching for CNY.

9) Did you know anybody who got married?
- A lot! Ah Ying Jie Jie, Jonas Kor Kor, Annie...bla bla bla.

10) Did you know anybody who passedaway?
- Ewww...No! And touch wood!



12) Did you move anywhere?
- To a new apartment nearer to my workplace.



14) What concerts/shows did you go to?
- I dont like these kind of place.

15) Are you registered to vote?
- Oh no... I haven't register yet.

16) Who did you want to win BigBrother?
- Huh...? What's that?

17) Where do you live now?
- Johor

18) Describe your birthday?
- Nothing special. Boyfy bought me my favourite cheese cake.

19) What's one thing you thought you'dnever do but did in 2007?
- Nothing.

20) What has been your favorite moment?
- People paying attention to me, hug me, feel loved.

21) What's something you learned aboutyourself?
- I am a trouble maker, always take things for granted.

22) Any new additions to your family?
- Nope

23) What was your worst month?
- December. Where is my bonus? I feel so useless working in this kind of environment.

24) What music will you remember 2007 by?
- There is one mandarin song called Jui Jin.

25) Who has been your best drinking buddy?
- Please dont ask me. I just got drunk last night during the gathering.

26) Made new friends?
- Sure. A lot.



28) Favorite Night out?
- Night out? I dont even have night life anymore. Where is there any night out?

LAST WEEK...
1. Had a beer with?
- My Tarc frens.

2 . Went to the movies with?
- Boyfy. Watched Warlords last weekend.

3 . Went to the mall with?
- Boyfy also.

4. Talked on the phone with?
- Too many people.

5. Made you laugh?
- haha.

6. You hugged?
- Cindy

7. You yelled at?
- No one.

DO YOU LIKE...
1. Pierce your nose or tongue? why?
- Too frightening for me. I dont even dare to pierce my ears! I prefer a tattoo.

2. Be serious or be funny?
- It all depends on the situation.

3. Drink whole or skim milk?
- Whole milk with Cocoa Crunch

4. Die in a fire or getot?
- Getot?

ANSW ER TRUTHFULLY...
1. Sun or moon?
- Moon

2. Winter or Fall Winter?
- Winter! How I wish I can wear those long waist jacket and walking around in knee length boots!

3. Left or right?
- Right

4. Sunny or rainy?
- Rainy

5. Peach or Pear?
- Pear

6. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
- Twirl la...

7 . Do You Cook?
- No

8 . Current mood?
- Moody and frustrated... feel like killing someone.

IN THE LAST WEEK HAVE YOU...
1. Kissed someone?
- No

2. Sang?
- Yes. Sing in my room.

3 . Been hugged?
- Nope

4. Danced Crazy?
- Nope either.

Saturday 22 December 2007

Im going to Kukup again!

I did some boring stuffs today. No mood to work at all. I am going to Kukup again, but with my Tarc friends. I haven't see them for more than 4 years already. Can't wait to meet them.

Friday 14 December 2007

I *heart* cupcakes



I'm craving for cupcakes now.

It's been a long long time since I ate cupcakes. When I was young, my parents used to buy cupcakes for us to eat. Well.... not so yummy afterall. They were bake using the conventional methods and very dry til can choke you to death.

Some cupcakes pics for you to drool:


Awww.... This one is delicious!


Though this cupcake doesn't look so nice, but I love the way how they put the strawberry slice there.


Whoa... so colourful! Wondering what's the fillings inside...


Totally orgasmic! *slrup*


Penguin!!! So nicely done!


Merry Christmas! Strictly for sweet tooth only : )


This cupcake is not for eating. It is a Cupcake Ornament!


How I wish I can have this one neh...


This one is simple and nice... Maybe I should bake one similar to this on my own? ;D


So groovy!


Awwwwww...!

Nowadays I see lots of people celebrating birthdays using cupcakes. Nice idea hor?


Haha... This cupcake looks lousy la... As ugly as a rock.


Woot! Even doggie celebrates birthday using cupcake!

Complains?

I love my job. Because it is very easy.

Why am I saying my job is as easy as ABC? Because all I need to give instructions. In one snap, the task is done!

If I am not a highly educated employee, I think I would fall in love with this job until the day I die.

To me, I cannot visual myself in this position in the future. Not to say future, visualizing myself in another one year time already is a failure.


I hate my company. This company is treating us like small lil' kids. All because of those damn O' dictators. They starts to control my life.

I was investigated by the security guard last night. He wants to know why am I going out, and whether I have a gate pass with me. Hello???? I am not a machine or some recycle boxes, why should I need a gate pass? As long as I have my ID card on, I can enter when ever I like. So stupid.

My colleagues even worst. They got their names jot down by the security. Damn O' security.

We were removed out from the office. Maybe someday I will have my Internet facility cut off. I have no idea what is going to happen next. Everyday we are living in ambiguity.

I starts to apply jobs in other company. I dont know how long I can stay here. I have lost trust with this company. All those damn O' dictators are just being selfish. Sometimes I feel the actions they take are too cunning. Just like Mr Wolf.

I was asked for an interview by a company in Melaka few days ago. I turned the offer down. Not that I dont like the company, but the journey to the airport is too faraway ;(

There is a scumbag from my department acting as if he is the big boss. No one in my department likes him.

And today, got 1 lakia sent email to scold me. He even cc the mail to his boss and my bosses. My boss helped me to reply his mail. I shoot him back with another email. A good "movie" is waiting for me ahead. Hehe.

Uhhh... too much of complain tonight. Si beh sian! Chao!

Thursday 13 December 2007

Stuck in between

I enjoy my job. But I couldn't see my future in this position.

I don't want to stuck in this position forever. I need a booze.

What should I do?

Should I resign?

Should I change department?

If I am really going to change department, how should I tell my boss? Is he going to get mad at me?

I don't think I am going to like my "new" boss because he is a cunning wolf.

Am I going to get my increment after I tell my boss about it?

Am I going to get any increment from Mr Wolf?

What if Mr Wolf doesn't accept my application?!!! Very no-face leh...

Aiksss! I hate thinking about it!!



This picture speaks a thousand words on my position right now:



Si Beh Sian Neh~~~~~~~~~

Wednesday 12 December 2007

Big Bike for X'mas?

Christmas is around the corner.

Although I am not a Christian, some how, Christmas bring me some special feelings. Maybe it is due to my upbringing bah. I used to believe that Santa Claus really does exist, and pop in some candy chocolate for me while I was sleeping!

How naive.

Let me tell you some 'stories' about Santa's preparation for Christmas.

Santa Claus owns a toy factory, and he has elfs to help him to make toys. Few days before this joyous day, Santa would be very busy going through children names around the world. Then very biasly gives pressies to good children only.

While Santa is sitting there checking through the list, the elfs would be in the toy factory burning midnight oil just to achive the output targeted by Santa.

Well, if you are wondering how the toy factory looks like, erm, some cartoons are showing those toys are handmade, while some cartoons are showing Santa invested a few huge mechanical machines just to make those toys. Anyway, it is quite ridiculas.

Oh ya... not to forget Santarina! The most sexy lady in the whole story, usually dress in super mini red gown with white furry cuttings! *slruppp* If you ask me who is she, I'm not sure either. If she is not Santa's wife, then must be his secretary then.

There is a familiar phase: Every successful man has a woman behind.

On Christmas Eve, Santa Claus and his elfs will fill up his Santa Pressies Sack with presents and check though the good children wish list again. Out of no where, Rudolph and his teammates appear in front of Santa with the red sledge.

When the clock strikes twelve,

Dong, Dong Dong...

Santa will ride off with Rudolph and the gang to give pressies to all the good children. And most importantly, he must ride the sledge across the moon. Hehe.

But nowadays, we get a lot of sickness. And of cuz, Santa wouldn't want to miss Christmas just because of Rudolph fall sick.

Santa has a new idea....
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Haha. A genius indeed!

3 lil' kittens died *sob*

I received a bad news from my mum this evening.

The sms goes like this:

"Reporting the demise of Samy n 2 tigers this am. Investigation done - Dolly must hv slept on them lastnite. This is Berita Ptg."

3 kittens including Samy were found breatheless this morning. My mum took the dead kittens and put them in another box and told Dolly that her kittens were dead. Dolly quickly went to grabbed her kittens at the neck there and brought them back to the old box with the other two alive kittens. When she saw her kittens not moving, she even licked their heads to wake them up.

How touching... Poor Dolly!

More pics:

Lil' tiger is curious with outside world
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Naughty Samy and mummy... see Samy's stomach??
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Tho you three lil' young souls are not be able to become our loving homey cats, we still wish you guys all the best in your next journey. God is watching from above. So everything would be alright. Don't worry.

And Samy, remember not to be a naughty cat next life. We still love you for what you are.

God bless.

Amen.

Tuesday 11 December 2007

5 kittens

Dolly finally gave birth to 5 cute lil "genuine pigs". Two black clubs and three grey clubs. Her clubs, however, turned out to be very big size and very furry. One of the kittens opened up her eyes on Day 5.

My mother is like a reporter, everyday clinking to her camera just to catch the wonderful unforgetable moments of those naughty kittens.

"We are 3 days old! Yeah!!"
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Hungry kittens
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"We are tigers..Stay away from us...Roarrrr"
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Synchronized Sleeping
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"See? Me and mummy look exactly alike, eh? We are the M cats"
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"Mummy so protective, hugs me so tight!"
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Assorted pix:

"Want to see myself up side down? I am so cute!!"
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Samy: (Waving paw profusely) "Ahhhh..! Don't touch me! And please leave me alone!!!"
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Samy promotes good relationship with his siblings...
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...but forgot to keep his sharp paw~
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Drunk Samy: "Haha, it's me again!"
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Monday 10 December 2007

Boredom

1/12 forced to resign
5/12 already tender
1/12 planning to tender

My boss is still happily enjoying his vacation. Not knowing that he is going to get a Bomb when he comes back to work.

Our department now is half dead. Amen.

After working Day Shift for 3 weeks, I feel very reluctant now because I need to work Night Shift this week.

To kill my boredom, I bring along some sushi, toasted bread (both bought by boyfy), and two mandarin oranges to work. Besides, I bring along my fav Taiwan Magazine too.

Hopefully I can "survive" until tomorrow morning~!

Saturday 8 December 2007

Happy FDA

Thank God. FDA finally passed!

I've been acting like a zombie the whole week. Not because I'm busy, but feeling demoted.

After the auditor pronouced that we had passed the FDA, we went to celebrate with our Boss. We went for Karaoke in JB.

That night was so fun. We sang Mandarin songs, Malay songs, Tamil songs, and even Japanese songs! That was so crazy!

The celebration ended around 2am. All the guys hung over except for me. So I drove them home.

Passing FDA is a good news. But we got problems here. Are we able to achieve that kind of target? Are our girls efficient enough? Am I going to work every saturday and sunday?

Well, Im working now but jobless. Isshhh...

Everyone from my department starts to tender.

1/12 forced to resign
4/12 already tender
2/12 planning to tender

Starting to hate myself, my job and everything...

Am I too emotional?

This is exactly how I feel right now...
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...feeling so disappointed.