Sick

Since last week, I have some giddiness when I lay down on my bed at night.  I thought maybe I have problem with blood sugar that cause me giddy. Then the symptom starts to attack early morning. There was one morning where I have to support my hand on the wall to avoid me from falling down.

I started to worry about my health then.

Two days ago, when I was doing Karen's laundry at home, suddenly I didn't feel well.  All the things I see were moving around. My head was spinning like mad.  I had to use my hands to hold against the wall & washing machine to support my body. I felt like vomitting.  I had cold sweat coming out from my face. I felt cold.  

Something was not right. First thing came into my mind was Karen. I told myself that I must go to see doctor now because I still need to take care of Karen that night.  Hubby was out of town for company trip.  I must get well.

I rested for a while at the sofa. Then pulled up my strength to get into the car and started driving to clinic despite I still had some giddiness in me.

After the doctor diagnosed me, he said I had ear balancing problem.  He gave me some medicine and it will cure me.  Where I get this ear balancing problem is unsure.   I might got it during traveling by airplane / ship. Or there is a bacteria infection inside.

After I reached home, I ate my medicine and vomited everything out.  I retake my medicine again and went to sleep.  I felt better after waking up.

To end my curiosity, I did some research in the internet.  Brain giddiness can be also caused by brain tumour.  Hopefully I just had some ear infection and not a tumour in there. Touch wood and god bless me.

If YOU are reading this

If there's anything happen to me, please take good care of Karen for me.  I love her more than anything.  Please let her know she has a mother who loves her very much.

Welcome 2013

Reviewing back my last year's resolution.  Let's see whether I accomplish them or not :)

1. Consume less salt and sugar
   Errr... Still taking junk food and enjoy salty food. Still eating ice creams and taking lots of milo. But totally didn't take these two during my confinement.
    
2. Take good care of myself and baby
   Seldom take instant noodle during pregnant. I had proper lunch everyday. I tried my best to protect baby and take good care of her. But accidents still happen. So sad. Will be more careful in the future.
   
   
3. Sleep before 11pm every night (can i make it??)
   Rubbish. Even during pregnant time, can't make it loh. Ahahhaha!! 
4. Eat lots of fruits and veges
   Yeap, I really drown myself with fruits and veges. 
5. Less high cholesterol food eg. Laksa, fried chicken, pork leg rice (awww.. so yummy)
   I ate lots of Laksa during my pregnancy. Reduced on KFC and McD.  
6. Lower my anger level and be more soft/ polite when i talk with others
   Fail  
  
7. Attend Yoga Class after 12th week of pregnancy
   Yes, I was so hardworking to attend Yoga Class. But after month 6, I skipped because I'm wasting a lot of time there doing nth.
   
   
8. Work less and relax more!!
   Yesh.. less time at work, less kepoh about colleagues. Shut off everything about work.

Well, I've accomplished 5/8 resolution for Year 2012.  Let's see what I have for 2013.

*cracking my head thinking*

2013 Resolution:

1. Find a new job and turn over a new leaf
2. Continue taking good care of Karen, no fall down from the bed or anything high again!! No please!!
3. Spend quality time with Karen by bring her to Parks (since she enjoys going to parks)
4. Less time on my handphone when I'm with Karen
5. Sleep before 11pm every night (so that I can be in deep sleep at 11pm)
6.   Start back Yoga when Karen is 8-month-old (can kah?)
7.  Less argument with Hubby & avoid it especially in front of Karen
8.  Taking good care of myself by eating lots of fruits, veges, yogurts and milk

When luck starts to kick in

Something for me to blog about today.

My Johor friend Annie contacted me through Facebook yesterday. Her husband company is searching for someone to do sales covering the whole East Malaysia including Brunei and Labuan.  The product is contact lens.

I think I will like this job.  It is going to be home based. I can take care of Karen when nanny is away.  Second, the business already has their customer base already. I just need to collect payment, collect sales, and I think to increase the sales and solve problem for customer. The cons would like traveling.  I hope I can travel once a month.  Not too frequent as I need to take care of Karen. I will miss her badly.

Why I hate traveling with this company now?  Because I don't like being alone? Because I can't deal with the customer there?  Just don't know why. Maybe I don't like our so called service provider in Miri.

After discussing the pro and cons with hubby, he said he strongly support me to take up this job.  

Hopefully everything goes well.  It's time to move on after 4 years here.  I want a new job, new environment, new colleagues. Start fresh again.