Crossing fingers

I am keeping my fingers crossed as tight as possible.  I must win this battle.

I must proof to them that I can close this gigantic sale. 

I have lost one last month.  I must get back this one.  It is a MUST!

Once it is closed, then I can get into a few level in 2015.

God bless the career.

God bless Karen and the whole family.

God bless a healthy baby soon.

The first and the last

It's an awful night for me. My left foot was cramped. My heart was beating badly. I was in a mess. I felt lost. The next thing I know, I need to go police station!

Karen and I went shopping together at Giant. We're happy. I've chosen a pair of shorts for myself. We had also chosen a set of new hangers for daddy. I slide my right hand into my bag, it's so empty. Can't believe it, I tried again, my purse was gone.

Putting all the things back, we went to our car to check, nope, it was not in my car.  I was so terrified that I knocked Karen's head against the car door. She cried a bit. She cried more then I put her in her car seat. She must have thought I've made an empty promise. I told her we will shop for buns later.

We returned home. I still can't find it.

I felt so lost. I had to face this all alone because hubby and my parents are overseas. Thank god I still have my in laws. They accompanied me to the police station. Really appreciate it. I need to thank them again when I see them.

Once again, I would like to thank god for his guidance and protection towards me and my family. I was lucky for not having thousands of ringgit in my purse. I was lucky it was stolen secretly and not a snatch to rob case. I was lucky no one was hurt during the event. They have used my credit card and debit card at Pizza Hut. If they really need that meal, please give them. I really hope some Good Samaritan found my purse somewhere and pass it to the police station or bring it to 3 hills park.

I told myself, I can lost everything but not Karen. I'm glad I could hug Karen to bed tonight. Thank you so much God. I'm so bless to have you around. You always pick me up when I fell down, thank you so much.

I promise I will change for the better before I change someone else.

A new awful beginning?

I started working with new company since 1st June. The price they paid me is good. But there is always a price to pay back.

I understand, no company is perfect. Just like human beings, no one is perfect.  Come back to thing of it, what is perfect?  The term "perfect" is too subjective. How good is perfect? We cannot tell right.. Haha.

I actually kind of lost right now. No one actually guiding me.  What do you expect to guide a Senior Exec?? That is the price I got to pay loh. Who ask me insist to have a "senior" in my post. Senior is supposed to guide other people, not other people guiding me. Damn stupid.

Things not running quite smoothly at the moment. House is in a big mess. I got no time to tidy things up. Too lazy to tiny up too.

Now tonnes of clothes waiting me to wash. Aihhh..


 

Coffee, coffee, coffee!

I've been jogging since Monday.  Today is the 4th day I jog.

First day was tiring.  I've not been exercising after karen was born.  And furthermore I'm a sport dummy.  It took me half run half walk 3 rounds for 30 mins.  I went home telling myself I must get a sport bra.  

I've been wanting a sport bra ever since before I got pregnant.  Finally I have a reason to get one. 

That 1st night was awesome.  I did not suffer from any leg aches.

So I came back with a sport bra on the 2nd morning.  I still took 3 rounds.  This time I ran quite hard during my 1st round.  I ended all 3 rounds in 20 mins.  I terribly tired after getting my 3rd round.  My legs finally ache.  Arhhh!

I went back again on the 3rd day.  I got myself another 3 rounds.  24 mins.  Slightly slower but I feel better.  Legs still ache. 

4th day, that's today, I did 3 rounds too. I ran for almost 2 rounds before I walked the last round.  My legs feel slightly better.  I finished all 3 rounds in 26 mins. 

But there's a problem.  I've been drinking a lot of coffee these few days.  I went mcd for arabica coffee.   I took coffee peng in coffee shops.  I went to starbucks for mocha.  I had a heart palpitation this afternoon.  It lasted for more than 15 mins.  I really scare I will just collapse and die.  

When I die, I just die.  I ended everything just like that.  Nothing to worry, no prolong pain or what.  First peron comes into my mind is Karen.  I cannot leave her alone.  She needs me a lot.  

Perhaps I should stop coffee.  Or limit myself to 1 cup per week.  Coffee & exercise should not works hand in hand I guess. 

Tomorrow is the day!

Here come Judgement Day!

Tomorrow is the day! Omg.. I'm so nervous and excited about it.

I'm flying to KL tomorrow to attend my 2nd interview with this company.  The air tickets are fully paid by the company.  I think I have big chance.  Hope everything went well lah~  Hope the interviewer (the GM) not that ngau, giving me all sort of funny funny questions to answer.  I really hope the interview will be carried out more or less like the one I had in Kuching.  I think most of all, they want to see how I look like, presentable or not kind of thing.

Karen & Daddy also ada Judgement Day tomorrow.  Hubby will be picking up Baby Karen tomorrow evening. Then battle (I hope not!) with her until I come back at 8pm.  I hope the two of them can be cooperative with each other tomorrow.  *dang!*  

Something about Karen's babysitter again.  Actually we wanted to put Karen at babysitter place until 10pm tomorrow, I changed my mind yesterday. Babysitter sounds reluctant taking care of Karen at night when I go for traveling (overnight outstation). She kept on chi chi zha zha say this say that.  No point letting Karen overtime there since she not so willing to take care of her overnight.  Anyway, we still need to pay her overtime too.  We will pay her RM20 extra for overtime 5 hours there.  A very good price loh~!  But problem is when we pay her RM20, what will she think, too much or too little?

Sometimes hor, I try to open one eye, close one eye.  I don't want to quarrel with anyone because my baby is still under her care. Just bear with it lah.  As long as she's achieving 80% of my expectation, I am happy enough already.

The Porridge Dilemma

I don't know how many parents (or I should say mom only?) have this problem.  

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO MAKE PORRIDGE FOR MY BABY!!!

Well, I am in dilemma since few months ago. I've been figuring how to make baby porridge, how long I need to cook, what should I cook with the porridge (meat? fish? vege?), when I should cook the porridge, etc.

Now the question is, do I need a slow cooker?  Do I really need one to cook baby porridge?  Can I use my micro computer rice cooker instead?  

How much rice I need to put in for my baby?  Do I need to cook soup for the porridge? Ahhh.. Really headache...

Baby Karen is nearly 6-month old now. I should be feeding her porridge soon.  But she can't even master to eat cereal properly yet.  I wonder I should start porridge that early.

Anyway, I've browse the internet and found some baby porridge making guide.  I'm still blur after reading it. 

Some people tell me bring the ingredient to babysitter there and let the babysitter cook for the baby.  Well, I'm a bit reluctant. 

Why?

1.  Babysitter very ngau chii, I scare she will bising bising if I ask her to cook for my baby. If she didn't bising in front of me, she will gossip something bad behind me with other parents.  (She always gossip other parents bad things for me to hear, duh!)

2.  If she cooks, is she cooking properly?  She has to take care another two boys, has to cook for she & her husband, need to feed my baby, feed the two boys, wash, clean....  So she got the time to cook or not?

3.  Hubby says why not cook our own because we can practice good hygiene.

I think I want to start cooking porridge (trial) this saturday. I can do it!!

Shit, what ingredient I should out in har???

Surprise Surprise Suprise!

Surprise! Surprise! Surprise!!!

Guess what? I received a call just now. It's from Johor. I'm going for 2nd interview by their General Manager!

It will be a day trip after chinese new year. Air tickets paid by them, of course!

What is my feeling right now? Hmm... how to describe... I AM TOTALLY EXCITED ABOUT IT!

Four and a half years ago, I had almost the same feeling like what I experience right now.  But this time is a bit different.  I have a four years experience in my hand.  This new place is going to upgrade me to a Senior level which my current one can't.

To go into detail? Not now because I need to go home hang my wet bedsheet and pick up Baby Karen. 

Happy happy today. Wanna have a pre-celebration later. Hehe.