Welcome 2016!

Before 2015 ended, I saw a post from a friend in FB saying that she will not be doing any resolution for 2016.  I replied her that I have not even done my 2015 resolution.

Well, I checked back and yoohoo... I have not done any resolution for 2014 & 2015! Total 2 years yo!

Here is my last resolution in 2013.

Do I need a resolution for 2016? Hmmm... Let's see.

What's happening?!!

Many times I wonder, did I married the same guy before we got married. I believe he is also asking the same question.

He said I'm ego. Yes, I am. I am always this ego. How about you? Do you mean you are not ego?

I feel sorry for Karen as she's the victim in this stupid relationship.

I can't see what's in front of me right now. I don't know how my future would be like. Should I still pursue my stand or should i just go with the flow. I just don't know. I'm trying my best not to hurt Karen as she's my everything now.

Review: Laneige Lip Treatment

 

This is the first time I bought such an expensive lip stick. 

Maybe to some people, RM70 is cheap. To me, not at all.  

Currently I have 4 pcs of Maybeline Baby Lips.  2 pcs with pink tint, 1 pc with orange tint, another pc which is colourless.  They cost me less than RM10/pc.

But why am I buying it?

This is actually not a lip stick. It is something like tinted lip balm. My cousin told me she is using Laneige Lip Stick and it is very moisturizing. The price is around RM70 too.

When I went to the Laneige counter, I bought lip treatment instead.  This is because their serum lipstick colours are very sharp.  Since that I am not used to sharp colour, I bought lip treatment with RED tint.

Under strong sunlight inside my car

Under not so strong sunlight. Still inside my car.

Evening sun on the way picking up piggy

Home lighting

Please tell me I look great. Hahaha!

Crossing fingers

I am keeping my fingers crossed as tight as possible.  I must win this battle.

I must proof to them that I can close this gigantic sale. 

I have lost one last month.  I must get back this one.  It is a MUST!

Once it is closed, then I can get into a few level in 2015.

God bless the career.

God bless Karen and the whole family.

God bless a healthy baby soon.

The first and the last

It's an awful night for me. My left foot was cramped. My heart was beating badly. I was in a mess. I felt lost. The next thing I know, I need to go police station!

Karen and I went shopping together at Giant. We're happy. I've chosen a pair of shorts for myself. We had also chosen a set of new hangers for daddy. I slide my right hand into my bag, it's so empty. Can't believe it, I tried again, my purse was gone.

Putting all the things back, we went to our car to check, nope, it was not in my car.  I was so terrified that I knocked Karen's head against the car door. She cried a bit. She cried more then I put her in her car seat. She must have thought I've made an empty promise. I told her we will shop for buns later.

We returned home. I still can't find it.

I felt so lost. I had to face this all alone because hubby and my parents are overseas. Thank god I still have my in laws. They accompanied me to the police station. Really appreciate it. I need to thank them again when I see them.

Once again, I would like to thank god for his guidance and protection towards me and my family. I was lucky for not having thousands of ringgit in my purse. I was lucky it was stolen secretly and not a snatch to rob case. I was lucky no one was hurt during the event. They have used my credit card and debit card at Pizza Hut. If they really need that meal, please give them. I really hope some Good Samaritan found my purse somewhere and pass it to the police station or bring it to 3 hills park.

I told myself, I can lost everything but not Karen. I'm glad I could hug Karen to bed tonight. Thank you so much God. I'm so bless to have you around. You always pick me up when I fell down, thank you so much.

I promise I will change for the better before I change someone else.

A new awful beginning?

I started working with new company since 1st June. The price they paid me is good. But there is always a price to pay back.

I understand, no company is perfect. Just like human beings, no one is perfect.  Come back to thing of it, what is perfect?  The term "perfect" is too subjective. How good is perfect? We cannot tell right.. Haha.

I actually kind of lost right now. No one actually guiding me.  What do you expect to guide a Senior Exec?? That is the price I got to pay loh. Who ask me insist to have a "senior" in my post. Senior is supposed to guide other people, not other people guiding me. Damn stupid.

Things not running quite smoothly at the moment. House is in a big mess. I got no time to tidy things up. Too lazy to tiny up too.

Now tonnes of clothes waiting me to wash. Aihhh..


 

Coffee, coffee, coffee!

I've been jogging since Monday.  Today is the 4th day I jog.

First day was tiring.  I've not been exercising after karen was born.  And furthermore I'm a sport dummy.  It took me half run half walk 3 rounds for 30 mins.  I went home telling myself I must get a sport bra.  

I've been wanting a sport bra ever since before I got pregnant.  Finally I have a reason to get one. 

That 1st night was awesome.  I did not suffer from any leg aches.

So I came back with a sport bra on the 2nd morning.  I still took 3 rounds.  This time I ran quite hard during my 1st round.  I ended all 3 rounds in 20 mins.  I terribly tired after getting my 3rd round.  My legs finally ache.  Arhhh!

I went back again on the 3rd day.  I got myself another 3 rounds.  24 mins.  Slightly slower but I feel better.  Legs still ache. 

4th day, that's today, I did 3 rounds too. I ran for almost 2 rounds before I walked the last round.  My legs feel slightly better.  I finished all 3 rounds in 26 mins. 

But there's a problem.  I've been drinking a lot of coffee these few days.  I went mcd for arabica coffee.   I took coffee peng in coffee shops.  I went to starbucks for mocha.  I had a heart palpitation this afternoon.  It lasted for more than 15 mins.  I really scare I will just collapse and die.  

When I die, I just die.  I ended everything just like that.  Nothing to worry, no prolong pain or what.  First peron comes into my mind is Karen.  I cannot leave her alone.  She needs me a lot.  

Perhaps I should stop coffee.  Or limit myself to 1 cup per week.  Coffee & exercise should not works hand in hand I guess. 

Tomorrow is the day!

Here come Judgement Day!

Tomorrow is the day! Omg.. I'm so nervous and excited about it.

I'm flying to KL tomorrow to attend my 2nd interview with this company.  The air tickets are fully paid by the company.  I think I have big chance.  Hope everything went well lah~  Hope the interviewer (the GM) not that ngau, giving me all sort of funny funny questions to answer.  I really hope the interview will be carried out more or less like the one I had in Kuching.  I think most of all, they want to see how I look like, presentable or not kind of thing.

Karen & Daddy also ada Judgement Day tomorrow.  Hubby will be picking up Baby Karen tomorrow evening. Then battle (I hope not!) with her until I come back at 8pm.  I hope the two of them can be cooperative with each other tomorrow.  *dang!*  

Something about Karen's babysitter again.  Actually we wanted to put Karen at babysitter place until 10pm tomorrow, I changed my mind yesterday. Babysitter sounds reluctant taking care of Karen at night when I go for traveling (overnight outstation). She kept on chi chi zha zha say this say that.  No point letting Karen overtime there since she not so willing to take care of her overnight.  Anyway, we still need to pay her overtime too.  We will pay her RM20 extra for overtime 5 hours there.  A very good price loh~!  But problem is when we pay her RM20, what will she think, too much or too little?

Sometimes hor, I try to open one eye, close one eye.  I don't want to quarrel with anyone because my baby is still under her care. Just bear with it lah.  As long as she's achieving 80% of my expectation, I am happy enough already.

The Porridge Dilemma

I don't know how many parents (or I should say mom only?) have this problem.  

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO MAKE PORRIDGE FOR MY BABY!!!

Well, I am in dilemma since few months ago. I've been figuring how to make baby porridge, how long I need to cook, what should I cook with the porridge (meat? fish? vege?), when I should cook the porridge, etc.

Now the question is, do I need a slow cooker?  Do I really need one to cook baby porridge?  Can I use my micro computer rice cooker instead?  

How much rice I need to put in for my baby?  Do I need to cook soup for the porridge? Ahhh.. Really headache...

Baby Karen is nearly 6-month old now. I should be feeding her porridge soon.  But she can't even master to eat cereal properly yet.  I wonder I should start porridge that early.

Anyway, I've browse the internet and found some baby porridge making guide.  I'm still blur after reading it. 

Some people tell me bring the ingredient to babysitter there and let the babysitter cook for the baby.  Well, I'm a bit reluctant. 

Why?

1.  Babysitter very ngau chii, I scare she will bising bising if I ask her to cook for my baby. If she didn't bising in front of me, she will gossip something bad behind me with other parents.  (She always gossip other parents bad things for me to hear, duh!)

2.  If she cooks, is she cooking properly?  She has to take care another two boys, has to cook for she & her husband, need to feed my baby, feed the two boys, wash, clean....  So she got the time to cook or not?

3.  Hubby says why not cook our own because we can practice good hygiene.

I think I want to start cooking porridge (trial) this saturday. I can do it!!

Shit, what ingredient I should out in har???

Surprise Surprise Suprise!

Surprise! Surprise! Surprise!!!

Guess what? I received a call just now. It's from Johor. I'm going for 2nd interview by their General Manager!

It will be a day trip after chinese new year. Air tickets paid by them, of course!

What is my feeling right now? Hmm... how to describe... I AM TOTALLY EXCITED ABOUT IT!

Four and a half years ago, I had almost the same feeling like what I experience right now.  But this time is a bit different.  I have a four years experience in my hand.  This new place is going to upgrade me to a Senior level which my current one can't.

To go into detail? Not now because I need to go home hang my wet bedsheet and pick up Baby Karen. 

Happy happy today. Wanna have a pre-celebration later. Hehe.

Sick

Since last week, I have some giddiness when I lay down on my bed at night.  I thought maybe I have problem with blood sugar that cause me giddy. Then the symptom starts to attack early morning. There was one morning where I have to support my hand on the wall to avoid me from falling down.

I started to worry about my health then.

Two days ago, when I was doing Karen's laundry at home, suddenly I didn't feel well.  All the things I see were moving around. My head was spinning like mad.  I had to use my hands to hold against the wall & washing machine to support my body. I felt like vomitting.  I had cold sweat coming out from my face. I felt cold.  

Something was not right. First thing came into my mind was Karen. I told myself that I must go to see doctor now because I still need to take care of Karen that night.  Hubby was out of town for company trip.  I must get well.

I rested for a while at the sofa. Then pulled up my strength to get into the car and started driving to clinic despite I still had some giddiness in me.

After the doctor diagnosed me, he said I had ear balancing problem.  He gave me some medicine and it will cure me.  Where I get this ear balancing problem is unsure.   I might got it during traveling by airplane / ship. Or there is a bacteria infection inside.

After I reached home, I ate my medicine and vomited everything out.  I retake my medicine again and went to sleep.  I felt better after waking up.

To end my curiosity, I did some research in the internet.  Brain giddiness can be also caused by brain tumour.  Hopefully I just had some ear infection and not a tumour in there. Touch wood and god bless me.

If YOU are reading this

If there's anything happen to me, please take good care of Karen for me.  I love her more than anything.  Please let her know she has a mother who loves her very much.

Welcome 2013

Reviewing back my last year's resolution.  Let's see whether I accomplish them or not :)

1. Consume less salt and sugar
   Errr... Still taking junk food and enjoy salty food. Still eating ice creams and taking lots of milo. But totally didn't take these two during my confinement.
    
2. Take good care of myself and baby
   Seldom take instant noodle during pregnant. I had proper lunch everyday. I tried my best to protect baby and take good care of her. But accidents still happen. So sad. Will be more careful in the future.
   
   
3. Sleep before 11pm every night (can i make it??)
   Rubbish. Even during pregnant time, can't make it loh. Ahahhaha!! 
4. Eat lots of fruits and veges
   Yeap, I really drown myself with fruits and veges. 
5. Less high cholesterol food eg. Laksa, fried chicken, pork leg rice (awww.. so yummy)
   I ate lots of Laksa during my pregnancy. Reduced on KFC and McD.  
6. Lower my anger level and be more soft/ polite when i talk with others
   Fail  
  
7. Attend Yoga Class after 12th week of pregnancy
   Yes, I was so hardworking to attend Yoga Class. But after month 6, I skipped because I'm wasting a lot of time there doing nth.
   
   
8. Work less and relax more!!
   Yesh.. less time at work, less kepoh about colleagues. Shut off everything about work.

Well, I've accomplished 5/8 resolution for Year 2012.  Let's see what I have for 2013.

*cracking my head thinking*

2013 Resolution:

1. Find a new job and turn over a new leaf
2. Continue taking good care of Karen, no fall down from the bed or anything high again!! No please!!
3. Spend quality time with Karen by bring her to Parks (since she enjoys going to parks)
4. Less time on my handphone when I'm with Karen
5. Sleep before 11pm every night (so that I can be in deep sleep at 11pm)
6.   Start back Yoga when Karen is 8-month-old (can kah?)
7.  Less argument with Hubby & avoid it especially in front of Karen
8.  Taking good care of myself by eating lots of fruits, veges, yogurts and milk

When luck starts to kick in

Something for me to blog about today.

My Johor friend Annie contacted me through Facebook yesterday. Her husband company is searching for someone to do sales covering the whole East Malaysia including Brunei and Labuan.  The product is contact lens.

I think I will like this job.  It is going to be home based. I can take care of Karen when nanny is away.  Second, the business already has their customer base already. I just need to collect payment, collect sales, and I think to increase the sales and solve problem for customer. The cons would like traveling.  I hope I can travel once a month.  Not too frequent as I need to take care of Karen. I will miss her badly.

Why I hate traveling with this company now?  Because I don't like being alone? Because I can't deal with the customer there?  Just don't know why. Maybe I don't like our so called service provider in Miri.

After discussing the pro and cons with hubby, he said he strongly support me to take up this job.  

Hopefully everything goes well.  It's time to move on after 4 years here.  I want a new job, new environment, new colleagues. Start fresh again.

Story of a Noob

Once upon a time, there was a noob. She was born in September 2008.  The so called "good" company took 2 months to train her. They expect her to fly like an eagle within the 2 months training.  

She spent most of her time familiarizing the sales process and everyone was too busy to attain her.  The two months of training is kind of total crap to her. She came back with a bit of knowledge and started to explore in the deep, dark tropical jungle.

During the journey, she was insulted by some customers but she never give up. Many people look down on her by saying a lot of discouraging advice too. She told herself, "Despite I'm a lady, I know I can do it. I don't want to let people look down on me".

Today, she is considered successful because nowadays customer will come looking after her instead. This is because she has created some reputation for herself in the market. Of course she is not the top salesman in this company. But she has earn herself some credit by having some of her own customer network. From a lady point of view, i think she has done something proud.


This is the 3 1/2 year she's stay on loyally with this "good" company. But no one appreciates her. During her last Team Building, her superior poked a deep hole in her heart. It hurts her so much. The wound will not recover. Even if the wound recovers, it will never be the same again. It will leave a scar.

Her motivation drops. She curses and swears her superior and the "good" company. She is so disappointed with all of them. She can't do anything but wait. She believes there is something brighter on the other side. 

She just have to wait and she will see it.

Welcome 2012 and Happy Dragon-ing ♥

Viewing back my previous post, it's done in September last year. All because of facebook @#$%

:D

This year is going to be an interesting year for me. I followed hubby to see a fortune master (routine) before chinese new year to check on our luck for this in coming dragon year.

This year is not a good year for me. I'll be having health problems and arguments with people. So the advice is I better step back when an argument is about to hit.

Financially I'll broke myself this year. But fortune master say I need to see things positively because it is a bad year for me anyway. I just need to be more carefully. Don't simply trust people and promise people things I can't accomplish.

Anyway, all these bad lucks can be washed away if there are some good happening this year! Such as a dragon baby :P

Well, I officially going to announced that I'm pregnant with 10 weeks 4 days old baby! Happy happy!

Gender? No idea. According to the chinese labour calendar, mine is in between boy and gal. No matter which gender, as long as healthy and not so bad looking is good enough for me :)


Here's my new year resolution this year:

1. Consume less salt and sugar
2. Take good care of myself and baby
3. Sleep before 11pm every night (can i make it??)
4. Eat lots of fruits and veges
5. Less high cholesterol food eg. Laksa, fried chicken, pork leg rice (awww.. so yummy)
6. Lower my anger level and be more soft/ polite when i talk with others
7. Attend Yoga Class after 12th week of pregnancy
8. Work less and relax more!!

Isn't this the best resolution I've made for myself this year?

Only 8 stuffs I need to accomplish. Quite easy I guess.



Wishing my family, friends and readers a happy, healthy and wealthy Dragon Year!!

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

Hello Bintulu

Feel so tired but just can't sleep. I find that traveling makes me busier. Instead of taking a good night rest in the hotel, I ended up doing paper works until midnight. Then I washed my hair after finish my work. Now my hair is wet, cannot sleep first, so blog lor.

The road trip from Bintulu to Miri today was terrible. I think I ate too much during lunch. During the trip, I felt like vomiting, Luckily nothing happened.

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival

Do you ever blog from a toilet bowl?

Yes, I DID! I'm actually blogging from the toilet in my hotel room right now. Hiak Hiak. Reading a kepoh blog, checking my bank account, FB, checking out latest clothes sold on shopping websites and bla bla blah.

After hibernating for a long long time and I come out with a toilet post to greet everyone.. haha... hi toilet... hi miri... hi imperial palace... I just don't understand why I'm stuck here today. I'm suppose having Mid Autumn Festival Dinner with family. Due to my commitment and I am a responsible person, I'm here today and sacrifice my dinner with family. No one will appreciate me for the sacrifice, instead got bombard for nothing that day. Really pissed off when I think back. I don't want to leave awful memories in my blog about work, so I will just shut up on this matter.

Basically, I'm extremely tired this week. The office moving and house moving is tearing me apart. I don't really feel like traveling today because we just had our new house warming party last night, I knew I will be superb tired today. But alas, it's over! Our house is pretty (to me, of cuz) and I bet a lot of people envy us (perasan betul...!) Our house is design according to modern lifestyle where most of our cabinets has red, black and white combination. On the other hand, the living room itself has a very cozy feeling. I really like the magenta chandelier we bought for our house. It is something I dreamed for! ;)

It's already 12.06am. I need to wake up at 6.30 tomorrow morning. Get myself washed, dressed and had my lone ranger breakfast. There are plenty of stuffs to update here. If not because of the influence of the kepoh blog, I will not be blogging today anyway. See how, maybe I will blog again tomorrow if Kemena Hotel has free WIFI to use. I will be traveling down to Bintulu tomorrow afternoon.

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival heaps!

Shopping yeah!

MAY

White Polka Dot Chiffon Office Blouse ( RM 49.50 )

Weaved Slim Belt ( RM 15.00 )

Super like this belt. Got it @ Button Up, One Jaya Shopping Centre

My old belt from Everise. Bought at RM8.90! Cheap leh.. but going to spoil soon~

This is how I look with a belt & without a belt

Look boring and a bit like Ah Sam.

See the difference..! Pretty mua....

Tips! This is how I tie my belt. Looks nice right??



TOTAL: RM 64.50

Ojipala

It's been a long long time since my last update.

I know i'm boring, that is why I'm repeating the same phrase every time i blog.

It's May. I just pass my April Birthday. Now officially 29. Opps... should not reveal cuz not young anymore.

Anyway, I changed my mine. I'm going to blow my age to everyone because this year is going to be my last year to enjoy my 20's. So why need to hide huh?

Too bad next year I'm force to tell everyone i'm in my 30's. Isshh.. really hate to think about it.


HAPPY 29th BIRTHDAY

I still remember when I was celebrating my 19th birthday at my rented house at Taman Bunga Raya, my ugly-uncle looking housemate came to congratulate me. He told me: "Enjoy your birthday. This is your last year celebrating your 1x birthday ya. Next year you're going to tell everyone you are not 1x anymore." Hmm... Although I hate him so much, what he said really true. 10 years have passed. I hate him for 10 years. Every time I came across people with the same name, I remember him and will start cursing him again.

It's time to let go, Gurl~ Life is so short. Not much time left. Why want to spend so much time hating a person?

If you notice, I never talk about this person in my blog. It's over. I've forgiven that dude. He was young. We were young. All of us were too naive to handle relationship problems. We fought everything from plates to kicking bedroom doors. He swallowed our parents money and kicked us out from the house. Oh yea... The amount was 200-300 bucks. Not worth hating someone for that few bucks, right??


To celebrate my birthday, I've been spending like a crazy girl recently. I bought plenty of online clothes. Reason?
"Me birthday mah, buy presents for myself. Hehe!"

Therefore, from now onwards, I'm going to update my shopping list here. I really hope blogging it out can control my spending urge and bring back my senses.


MARCH

Pink Chiffon Dress ( RM 44.50 )

Beige Traveler Shorts ( RM 45 )

TOTAL: RM 89.50



APRIL

SK-II trial set ( RM 110 )

Office trousers ( RM 42 )

White Office Handbag ( RM 29 )

TOTAL: RM 181

Bonnie: Bye2

Bonnie hasn't come back. She went missing after I attended a wedding dinner on the 15th January. I couldn't find her after I came home. I searched around the neighbourhood and there's not sign of her.

Someone must have stolen her like what they did to Hotdog.

Or perhaps 'someone' didn't like her and threw her far far away.

I would have spotted her if she's lost.

I feel very very upset when I think of Bonnie.

WHO IS THIS HEARTLESS PERSON WHO STOLE HER AWAY FROM ME?!?!

I want to curse you, curse you and curse you.

I want you to suffer and suffocate yourself while lying on your death bed.

I want you to repay all the bad stuffs you have done to Bonnie.

I want you to born with no tongue and no hands in your next life.


No one knows who you are. NO ONE! BUT GOD KNOWS EVERYTHING!!!!!!

If I happen to know who you are, I will not do anything to you.

Because after I publish this post, I'm going to forgive you and feel pity of you at the same time. The curse will follow you for the rest of your entire life and your next life as well.

I will not post any blogs regarding you and Bonnie in the future. I'm going to erase you out of my life. But I still want to tell you, I REALLY, REALLY HATE YOU FOR TREATING BONNIE LIKE THIS!



Dear Bonnie,

If God has senses, He will sure pass this message to you. I really miss you. I miss running in the park and playing throw and fetch with you. If you are still alive, remember to stay strong. I hope you've found a better owner than me. If not, may God lights up the path for you to return to me. I will protect and take care of you until the end of time. This is my promise to you and God.

I love you forever.

Bonnie