Sick

Since last week, I have some giddiness when I lay down on my bed at night.  I thought maybe I have problem with blood sugar that cause me giddy. Then the symptom starts to attack early morning. There was one morning where I have to support my hand on the wall to avoid me from falling down.

I started to worry about my health then.

Two days ago, when I was doing Karen's laundry at home, suddenly I didn't feel well.  All the things I see were moving around. My head was spinning like mad.  I had to use my hands to hold against the wall & washing machine to support my body. I felt like vomitting.  I had cold sweat coming out from my face. I felt cold.  

Something was not right. First thing came into my mind was Karen. I told myself that I must go to see doctor now because I still need to take care of Karen that night.  Hubby was out of town for company trip.  I must get well.

I rested for a while at the sofa. Then pulled up my strength to get into the car and started driving to clinic despite I still had some giddiness in me.

After the doctor diagnosed me, he said I had ear balancing problem.  He gave me some medicine and it will cure me.  Where I get this ear balancing problem is unsure.   I might got it during traveling by airplane / ship. Or there is a bacteria infection inside.

After I reached home, I ate my medicine and vomited everything out.  I retake my medicine again and went to sleep.  I felt better after waking up.

To end my curiosity, I did some research in the internet.  Brain giddiness can be also caused by brain tumour.  Hopefully I just had some ear infection and not a tumour in there. Touch wood and god bless me.

If YOU are reading this

If there's anything happen to me, please take good care of Karen for me.  I love her more than anything.  Please let her know she has a mother who loves her very much.

Welcome 2013

Reviewing back my last year's resolution.  Let's see whether I accomplish them or not :)

1. Consume less salt and sugar
   Errr... Still taking junk food and enjoy salty food. Still eating ice creams and taking lots of milo. But totally didn't take these two during my confinement.
    
2. Take good care of myself and baby
   Seldom take instant noodle during pregnant. I had proper lunch everyday. I tried my best to protect baby and take good care of her. But accidents still happen. So sad. Will be more careful in the future.
   
   
3. Sleep before 11pm every night (can i make it??)
   Rubbish. Even during pregnant time, can't make it loh. Ahahhaha!! 
4. Eat lots of fruits and veges
   Yeap, I really drown myself with fruits and veges. 
5. Less high cholesterol food eg. Laksa, fried chicken, pork leg rice (awww.. so yummy)
   I ate lots of Laksa during my pregnancy. Reduced on KFC and McD.  
6. Lower my anger level and be more soft/ polite when i talk with others
   Fail  
  
7. Attend Yoga Class after 12th week of pregnancy
   Yes, I was so hardworking to attend Yoga Class. But after month 6, I skipped because I'm wasting a lot of time there doing nth.
   
   
8. Work less and relax more!!
   Yesh.. less time at work, less kepoh about colleagues. Shut off everything about work.

Well, I've accomplished 5/8 resolution for Year 2012.  Let's see what I have for 2013.

*cracking my head thinking*

2013 Resolution:

1. Find a new job and turn over a new leaf
2. Continue taking good care of Karen, no fall down from the bed or anything high again!! No please!!
3. Spend quality time with Karen by bring her to Parks (since she enjoys going to parks)
4. Less time on my handphone when I'm with Karen
5. Sleep before 11pm every night (so that I can be in deep sleep at 11pm)
6.   Start back Yoga when Karen is 8-month-old (can kah?)
7.  Less argument with Hubby & avoid it especially in front of Karen
8.  Taking good care of myself by eating lots of fruits, veges, yogurts and milk

When luck starts to kick in

Something for me to blog about today.

My Johor friend Annie contacted me through Facebook yesterday. Her husband company is searching for someone to do sales covering the whole East Malaysia including Brunei and Labuan.  The product is contact lens.

I think I will like this job.  It is going to be home based. I can take care of Karen when nanny is away.  Second, the business already has their customer base already. I just need to collect payment, collect sales, and I think to increase the sales and solve problem for customer. The cons would like traveling.  I hope I can travel once a month.  Not too frequent as I need to take care of Karen. I will miss her badly.

Why I hate traveling with this company now?  Because I don't like being alone? Because I can't deal with the customer there?  Just don't know why. Maybe I don't like our so called service provider in Miri.

After discussing the pro and cons with hubby, he said he strongly support me to take up this job.  

Hopefully everything goes well.  It's time to move on after 4 years here.  I want a new job, new environment, new colleagues. Start fresh again.

Story of a Noob

Once upon a time, there was a noob. She was born in September 2008.  The so called "good" company took 2 months to train her. They expect her to fly like an eagle within the 2 months training.  

She spent most of her time familiarizing the sales process and everyone was too busy to attain her.  The two months of training is kind of total crap to her. She came back with a bit of knowledge and started to explore in the deep, dark tropical jungle.

During the journey, she was insulted by some customers but she never give up. Many people look down on her by saying a lot of discouraging advice too. She told herself, "Despite I'm a lady, I know I can do it. I don't want to let people look down on me".

Today, she is considered successful because nowadays customer will come looking after her instead. This is because she has created some reputation for herself in the market. Of course she is not the top salesman in this company. But she has earn herself some credit by having some of her own customer network. From a lady point of view, i think she has done something proud.


This is the 3 1/2 year she's stay on loyally with this "good" company. But no one appreciates her. During her last Team Building, her superior poked a deep hole in her heart. It hurts her so much. The wound will not recover. Even if the wound recovers, it will never be the same again. It will leave a scar.

Her motivation drops. She curses and swears her superior and the "good" company. She is so disappointed with all of them. She can't do anything but wait. She believes there is something brighter on the other side. 

She just have to wait and she will see it.

Welcome 2012 and Happy Dragon-ing ♥

Viewing back my previous post, it's done in September last year. All because of facebook @#$%

:D

This year is going to be an interesting year for me. I followed hubby to see a fortune master (routine) before chinese new year to check on our luck for this in coming dragon year.

This year is not a good year for me. I'll be having health problems and arguments with people. So the advice is I better step back when an argument is about to hit.

Financially I'll broke myself this year. But fortune master say I need to see things positively because it is a bad year for me anyway. I just need to be more carefully. Don't simply trust people and promise people things I can't accomplish.

Anyway, all these bad lucks can be washed away if there are some good happening this year! Such as a dragon baby :P

Well, I officially going to announced that I'm pregnant with 10 weeks 4 days old baby! Happy happy!

Gender? No idea. According to the chinese labour calendar, mine is in between boy and gal. No matter which gender, as long as healthy and not so bad looking is good enough for me :)


Here's my new year resolution this year:

1. Consume less salt and sugar
2. Take good care of myself and baby
3. Sleep before 11pm every night (can i make it??)
4. Eat lots of fruits and veges
5. Less high cholesterol food eg. Laksa, fried chicken, pork leg rice (awww.. so yummy)
6. Lower my anger level and be more soft/ polite when i talk with others
7. Attend Yoga Class after 12th week of pregnancy
8. Work less and relax more!!

Isn't this the best resolution I've made for myself this year?

Only 8 stuffs I need to accomplish. Quite easy I guess.



Wishing my family, friends and readers a happy, healthy and wealthy Dragon Year!!

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

Hello Bintulu

Feel so tired but just can't sleep. I find that traveling makes me busier. Instead of taking a good night rest in the hotel, I ended up doing paper works until midnight. Then I washed my hair after finish my work. Now my hair is wet, cannot sleep first, so blog lor.

The road trip from Bintulu to Miri today was terrible. I think I ate too much during lunch. During the trip, I felt like vomiting, Luckily nothing happened.

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival

Do you ever blog from a toilet bowl?

Yes, I DID! I'm actually blogging from the toilet in my hotel room right now. Hiak Hiak. Reading a kepoh blog, checking my bank account, FB, checking out latest clothes sold on shopping websites and bla bla blah.

After hibernating for a long long time and I come out with a toilet post to greet everyone.. haha... hi toilet... hi miri... hi imperial palace... I just don't understand why I'm stuck here today. I'm suppose having Mid Autumn Festival Dinner with family. Due to my commitment and I am a responsible person, I'm here today and sacrifice my dinner with family. No one will appreciate me for the sacrifice, instead got bombard for nothing that day. Really pissed off when I think back. I don't want to leave awful memories in my blog about work, so I will just shut up on this matter.

Basically, I'm extremely tired this week. The office moving and house moving is tearing me apart. I don't really feel like traveling today because we just had our new house warming party last night, I knew I will be superb tired today. But alas, it's over! Our house is pretty (to me, of cuz) and I bet a lot of people envy us (perasan betul...!) Our house is design according to modern lifestyle where most of our cabinets has red, black and white combination. On the other hand, the living room itself has a very cozy feeling. I really like the magenta chandelier we bought for our house. It is something I dreamed for! ;)

It's already 12.06am. I need to wake up at 6.30 tomorrow morning. Get myself washed, dressed and had my lone ranger breakfast. There are plenty of stuffs to update here. If not because of the influence of the kepoh blog, I will not be blogging today anyway. See how, maybe I will blog again tomorrow if Kemena Hotel has free WIFI to use. I will be traveling down to Bintulu tomorrow afternoon.

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival heaps!