I am not a rubbish bin!

Too many bad omens happening to me recently.

First, someone destroyed my slippers.

Now, my car got bumped.

They are one of the darkest day happened in my life.

It might be karma or something like that.

But I have enough.

Time to put a stop to all these crap.

Please keep all those nonsense out of my life.

I don't want to know.

I don't want to hear.

Go away.

Amitabah

I received a text from mum this morning.

Guama was admitted to Cancer Wad @ SGH last night.

Tua Yi told mum that Guama breathing is getting slow.

Within one hour time, I received another text from mum saying Guama has passed on.

Two years ago was Guakong. Now is Guama.

We just celebrated Guama's b'day recently. We knew that she might not be able to walk through for another year with her health condition like that. She's getting weaker and weaker by days.

I guess God has come to a conclusion to put her to rest.



Guakong is waiting for you with open arms in heaven.

You will always remain the most cheerful and sporting ah mah in our life.

We miss you.

May you rest in peace ya, Guama.

Amitabah.

When misery about to end...

Had been very very busy these few days.

Busy with work. Busy with Dolly Fashion. And busy with problems, problems and never ending problems.

Today is a very important day. It is judgement day.

God knows how I feel. Time for him to put this to an end.

I've received all your blessings. Thank God :)

Bravery

Face the challenge bravely.

Equip myself with knowledge and gears to climb to the top.

I will never let people look down on me.

Because my name is Shen (神).

Brainstorm

Today is the third day.

My mind couldn't stop thinking of the incident. I tried to repeat the scene as much time as possible to get a clearer view on what is happening.

Too many dramas done until I don't know which is true and which is not.

When I think back, then only I realize there's a lot of hanky panky stuffs happened before this. First was my missing facial form. It went missing and later found downstairs and not inside the washroom but on a table. I was wondering who took my stuffs. Very slightly people to mistook it because my facial form was pasted with a "double happiness" sticker which I brought from my parents home to my new home. Later then, I found my toiletries bucket was spilled by someone using body shampoo (whether by purpose or not). Even my toothbrush was dirtied by the body shampoo. During that point of time, I didn't think much. I thought someone must have being careless. When I review back the incident, I've been staying here for almost 3 months, nothing as such happen before. Now I think I know who is behind the scene.

I never though that a grown up person can do such childish stuff. To some people, she's childish. To me she is not just childish, but threatening. I didn't talk to her before. What more to say quarrel. And she bought a pair of scissors from hardware shop to snap my slippers. What if I quarreled with her before, is she going to take out a knife and kill me?

Seriously, this is life threatening. To me, destroying my slippers might just a beginning for her to scare me of. What evil acts will happen after this?

My brain has been working hard thinking how to deal with her if I see her in person. As what my FIL told me, scold her to not let her come into the house. What if she refuse to go? What if she fought with me? Or maybe I should sit down and talk to her? Is it going to work? She's a person full with drama, she can acting okay but will she back stab me later? What if I see her walking into the house I go and punch her? Chase her off using a broom? No. This is for fantasy only. If I'm going to beat her up, chase her or scold her, it will gain more hatred in her and come back for more revenge. I may end up with a bucket of acid on my face. Furthermore, it is not right to beat up someone. She can make a report to catch me instead.

I was quite down after this incident. Someone is hurting me and I couldn't do anything. I do not want to create more karma. But is this going to end?

This morning, something strikes me. I've decided to make a legal report. I hope this is the best solution to protect me in the future.

A letter to God 2

Dear God,

Thank you for answering my prayer.

With your almighty power, the culprit finally revealed.

I also would like to thank my parents for being so supportive. I will be more careful next time.

I remember there's a phrase that people told me before:

"When a dog is barking like mad, we do not need to bark back. If we try to bark back at it, this will only show that we have no difference with that mad dog."

Mum told me, nothing is permanent in this world. So this is just a temporary stage where I need to endure.

Thanks again for your guidance, God.

I'm glad you are here for me.


Love,
Your beloved child

A letter to God

Dear God,

I was so angry this morning. Someone sabotaged me. And that person is suspect to be staying under the same roof.

I found my slippers on the floor. And when I took a good look at it, it is broken! Someone actually use a scissors to snap my slippers. Then I proceed to the shoe rack I placed inside of the house, my imitation crocs also has been destroyed.

I could feel flames in my eyes. A lot of wicked thoughts ran through my mind. I was burning with anger.

Thinking back of what I learn in Rajah Yoga, I slowly cooled down myself. I made a call to hubby telling him all those devilish acts at home.

The problem is not solved yet. Who is bluffing, who is telling the truth, I don't know. No matter how complicate this problem is, the truth will be revealed soon. Very soon.

Only God knows who is the devil.

In God I trust, in God I praise.

I know that you love me so much. You are there for me when ever I need you. You are my almighty savior. I need nothing but your protection.

I admit I have those evil thoughts earlier on. But I choose not to become one. Holy angel told me not to hear what Mr Devil told me to do. I'm proud that I didn't make any wrong move.

Thanks for your guidance, God.


Love,
Your beloved child